I haven’t written in quite a while now. There is this huge
case of writer’s block that I am nursing. It was nagging at first. Then I got
comfortable with it. Now I even play with it. I’m starting to think it is normal.
Right now, I’m only writing to tell you that the reason I haven’t been writing
is because of the writer’s block. So don’t expect this to be a good piece.
So what have I been up to? I’ve been very, very busy. I’m
not sure of what kept me so busy. But my mind has been in overdrive these past
few weeks. I haven’t been able to read a book to completion. I haven’t even
posted as often on Facebook as I am expected to post. Lately, I share other
people’s posts. I share so much that it’s freaking me out!
My heart has been in an emotional blender. I’m still
recovering from the experience. So I guess that has also contributed to my
writer’s block. I was scared of writing, lest I opened up my heart and the
whole world got to know what’s inside. I actually tried it, but I pulled down
the blog post before it had been read by 10 people. It was too personal for my
own liking.
Lately, I’ve gotten to enjoy the friendship of people around
me. I sing at church. I try to make new friends. I’ve even been able to say hi
to a few strangers while hiding behind a disposable cup of soda after Sunday
service. There is a girl who is smiling so much at me every Sunday. I think she
likes me.
That doesn’t mean I’ve become religious all of a sudden.
Actually, I’m shedding more and more religion every day. I no longer go to
church as a duty. I go because of the people there. And because I’ve realized I
can still sing. I’m tired of being lonely. That reminds me. It’s a long time
since I last had a drink. Someone needs to take me out soon.
I wrote a book. The title is
“What If God Doesn’t ReallyLove You?” I was so excited about it. But my friends have been asking what
happened to it since I’ve been quiet about it of late. Well, it is still in the
works.
I’m sorry I haven’t talked about
it in a long time. There has been a lot going on, I’ve even forgotten some of the
stuff I wrote in that book. But I should get it out sometime soon. Maybe I’ll
offer a free e-book download for you all here. Keep looking out for it.
I’m thinking so hard about starting to write a novel in
December. By then the writer’s block better be lifted, otherwise I’ll strangle
it with my bare hands!
So friends, if you’ve been missing my blog posts and my chronic
online presence, know that I still exist. I love you. And I’ll be back as soon
as I get tired of being comfortable with my writer’s block.
